ego boost much?

yesterdayyesterdayyesterdayyestehdanfhuaojf;drga!

finally something slightly interesting happened

which is so refreshing as it's been so standard for soo long. just nothing much going on and then at last we had a party that we actually were in the mood for (it's been months and months and months since we've actually wanted to bother going out)

and it was just such a fun day because everyone was excited for going to gemma's later, and every lesson down was one closer to parteee toime

and just sitting in my free last period was soo nice because i wasn't even doing much but i didn't have crappy history with miss grove

and i was just sitting around listening to music and i just remember listening to this:

and feeling weirdly excited for the first time in a long time. (please excuse the weird anime video that goes along with the song)

then it was just such a nice night getting ready and being slightly hysterical with susy and eva and gemma, and then acting out our plans for each individual night (which ended in everyone just banging under the table)

and then at one point we had the group of 8 of us reunited which was so old and outdated but sort of gave a wave of nostalgia

in general it just felt all different, seeing people i hadn't seen for ages, not doobing and drinking vod instead, and not getting more than tipsy or sad at all was really really nice

though i think the not being sad thing was sort of because i was preoccupied with my valiant conquest of you.
and then finding out, to my surpise, that you'd told eva that 'well she's obviously a seriously attractive girl'... which was an ego boost and a half, then not having to make the first proper move.... eeeee it just cheered me up no end. not that it wasn't just rebound fun, but aghh i've missed getting with people.

and yeah, it felt really nice having people excited for me, and me being all retarted and excited and nervous and lustful makes such a change from being doobed out and sad.

oh god i do remember at one point having my 'doobing prowess' recited to you which was just sooo embarrassing now i think of it.

BUT FOOOK EEEET i'm not going to let me get myself down for once.

byebybye

even if im on the sort of high from last night that is gunna crash and burn soon enoughblahblahblahh